Whats Wrong with Sadness

???

Today I'm thankful for tears.

I think we try to avoid sadness-- I sure do.

We see it as a bad thing. But sadness is just an emotion, and we are very feeling-beings.

I've been avoiding it the last couple weeks...avoiding feeling. Too much to do.

Avoiding having to stop and take the time to take a heart-inventory check.

Busy-ness = no time for sadness...?

Nope, see the problem with that is its still there. Just gets worse, builds up. And then you get days like today with a few all-the-sudden crying spells that are triggered by nothing in particular, or just very small things.

So, I need a reality check.

I've realized that some of my most intimate, sweet times with the Lord have been in some of my saddest moments.
Why?
Because when my sadness/anxiety finally reaches the point of overflowing, I am unable to go to the thing that I normally would for temporary satisfaction and happiness.

My heart, pleading. I have no choice but to turn to Jesus.
No work out...
No food...
No artwork...
No song...
No facebook...
No drink....
No text....
No person...
No man...
will help this time.
I just need Jesus.

I need to quiet my heart and just let myself cry.

Dramatic and sensitive? Maybe.
Real? Very.

What's wrong with sadness?
Nothing.

Life is hard. 
It could always be harder... this I know, but its so easy to forget and be stuck in my own little world where my problems are the center of the universe. Selfish? Quite. Real? Extremely.

It could always be harder.

Busy-ness.
brokenness.
lonliness.
hearteache.
death- both physically and spiritually.
separation.
emptiness.
dysfunction.
conflict.
darkness.
seasons.
                               It could always be harder.

But hearing that sometimes doesn't help in the moment of deep sadness.
So, I choose to embrace it, I 'spose.

I'm thankful for tears today.

When some of the women I love and care for allow me to see them cry, I always feel overwhelmed by their sweet delicate beauty.

Why are we so embarrassed to cry in front of other people?

There's something so sad, but yet so sweet about tears.

                             They are so real.
No room for masks in this space. I'm thankful for that.

Beautiful.

Something so lovely.





^9-10 God's a safe-house for the battered,
      a sanctuary during bad times.
   The moment you arrive, you relax;
      you're never sorry you knocked. 

Psalm 9:9-10 

6 I'm tired of all this - so tired. My bed has been floating forty days and nights On the flood of my tears. My mattress is soaked, soggy with tears. 7 The sockets of my eyes are black holes; nearly blind, I squint and grope. 

Psalm 6:6-7
Dear Jesus,
^3-5 You're my cave to hide in,
      my cliff to climb.
   Be my safe leader,
      be my true mountain guide.
   Free me from hidden traps;
      I want to hide in you.
   I've put my life in your hands.
      You won't drop me,
      you'll never let me down. 
Psalm 31:3-5

You turn my sadness into dancing...


^11-12 You did it: you changed wild lament
      into whirling dance;
   You ripped off my black mourning band
      and decked me with wildflowers.
   I'm about to burst with song;
      I can't keep quiet about you.
   God, my God,
      I can't thank you enough. 
Psalm 30:11-12

I love simple. and i love lovely.

Ricky and I are so excited to have a home full of colors....

here's some eye-candy for the lovers of color

 So close to our wedding color pallet, love it.

 Lime makes everything better.

Sweet girl :)

I pray whatever emotion you feel today, you embrace it and allow God to do what He wills with it.